Wednesday, May 14, 2008

One more thing... but still minus commitment!

Ok, so let's run with the hypothetical that I do in fact keep up with this blog when I make it to Taiwan. In that case-- for those who may stumble upon this BEFORE I actually get it going--here are some...

Details!

Right now I live in my spider-infested sister's basement. I've never had any real aversion to spiders, but after this three week stay in spider-haven, I have began to develop one. I am in Shelby Ohio-- the same town I have lived in for the past year and a half. I moved out of my apartment two weeks ago... moving into my sister's house to save a bit of money and to get rid of my possessions.

My former Apartment:



Small. Simple. Discrete.

From what I understand, I will be in Taipei for about two weeks of training and then head to Yilan county or Ilan county or I-lan county (all of those being simply different phonetic interpretations of the same Chinese name). I'll be working in Luodong township or Loudong or maybe even Lou Dong which then could feasibly be Luo Dong (same thing-- pointing at an overarching common and frustrating theme that I am sure will only get even more frustrating until I just laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh...)

I don't care what happens. Don't care if I die. Don't care if I love it. Don't care if I hate it. Don't care. I am BEYOND tired of hearing people tell me how I will feel... tired of hearing people tell me what I will miss and on and on.

I
DON'T
CARE.

The experience will be whatever it is-- and I am excited to just leave it at that. I am not going to try and build expectations up around this (read: I am not going to be naive and post anything about expectations because I don't want to see them go unrealized.) If I ever put anything up that smacks of ambition-- realize that I am doing it without any real sense of hope or desire. Who knows? Not me.

I'll fill in some blanks later-- maybe my next post will be during one of my stupidly long layovers on my way to Taiwan.

First... last?

Maybe I will, and maybe I won't. Starting a blog about moving to Taiwan conjures two different feelings:

1. Cliché and damning
2. Cliché and informative

I've stumbled over several blogs by people more or less like myself-- young and heading to Taiwan for reasons mostly centered around getting away from what they've known for so long. Some are escaping crappy lives and some are just looking for adventure. Who am I? Which one am? Am I either?

I don't know... and I don't really know that I can know until after this adventure is well underway. I think it isn't really possible to get a sense of myself or my motivations until a bit of time has passed to let the fog of consciousness dissipate. So, I am reticent to blog as I don't want to go back and read this and think "what a fucking idiot."

That's all.